“Your spoken words are sweeter than any siren’s song.”
I dream of one day having my own kitchen, well lit and roomy – with granite counter-tops, dark-stained, cherry cabinets, a well-stocked, organized spice rack and a full set of pots.
I’d also like a nice china tea set and a juicer.
“No, you don’t understand, sir. You cannot separate a musician from her instrument. Rhythms pulse through her veins, keeping the tempo of her heart. Every movement; every exhalation a different song. Music is her life – the very essence of her being. Without music, well… you try holding your breath for an eternity.”
“she was a walking contradiction: wanting so desperately to be alone, yet longing for a hand to hold.”
So, in an attempt to start my newly determined health(ier) kick off on the right foot, I’ve decided to make myself a mix of vegetables to dip in hummus for lunch/dinner/study parties during the week.
(This is what happens when my mother lets me do groceries. )
My beautiful mix consists of a 8 different veggies, which I’ve tossed and separated into several different freezer bags for portability.
- Grape tomatoes
- Green/red peppers
- Snap Peas
‘Go big or go home’, I always say.
(Edit: I’m also really excited because after months of searching I’ve finally been able to get myself some kale. Going to make chili kale chips tomorrow. )
Normally new years resolutions are not my cup of tea, but I’ve decided to give it a whirl and see how well I do. The last stretch of 2012 was somewhat rough – It left me with quite a bit to think about.
I have decided that this year will be a year of self-improvement (even more so than previous years – I think that with every passing day I am slowly evolving into the person I want to be but I want to be making more of a concious effort).
Here’s what I have so far (yes, I am aware of how ambitious this is):
- Eat healthier, more diverse foods (/make time to prepare myself proper vegetarian meals.)
- Spend more time with my family.
- Work on active listening as well as honest/open communication with family and friends.
- Be more aware of my surroundings/people around me. (Consideration, Compassion, Conciousness)
- Speak up instead of keeping quiet.
- Put more time/effort into school work and improving GPA
- Quit my job so I can accomplish the above bullet.
- Read more books (Goal: 30, So far: 4)
- Get in shape.
- Drink less coffee (preferably none, but I’m not going to be too ambitious here)
- Keep my room clean/organized (this also applies to my school notes)
- Put time aside for “me-time” (my ‘ABCs’ as I like to call it – Art, Baths, Cooking.)
- Be concious of speech (minimize profanity, “um, um, like, um, like”, positive wording rather than negative.)
- Volunteer !
- Keep my sketchbook/notebook on me. Try for at least one sketch or written line a day.
- Smile at strangers – hell, even talk to them if they look friendly enough.
- Leave the city for more than two weeks to do something outdoors-y.
- See more plays (Aiming for at least 7)
- Go to the museum instead of thinking about going to the museum (the same goes for slam poetry nights.)
“She seems so cool, so focused, so quiet, yet her eyes remain fixed upon the horizon. You think you know all there is to know about her immediately upon meeting her, but everything you think you know is wrong. Passion flows through her like a river of blood.
She only looked away for a moment, and the mask slipped, and you fell. All your tomorrows start here.”
― Neil Gaiman, “Fragile Things”
“Distractions only get us so far, poppet. These things you are hiding from – they have a way of catching up with us whether we want them to or not. And when they do, it will hurt – It will hurt more than anything you have ever felt, my dove. Your heart will rattle in its rib cage, threatening escape. You will feel as though the night may never end. The best thing to do is to just stop where you are, wherever you are. Breathe deep, open your arms wide and say: ‘I am not afraid’. Accept the pain as it is. Embrace it like an old lover, then learn to let it go before it hardens your heart. Only then can you move forward – only then can you grow.”